Cascades

Cascades

Your hair cascading down over my face

Creating our very own private space

Surrounded by you

All I can see is that beautiful face

Above me filling my vision

I feel you shift

And your boobs come into focus

The sweet weight of them resting on me

My face accepting them

Their feel as they move slowly

Further up until my mouth

Can taste and savour them

The stiffness of your nipples

Between my teeth

The pressure from them

As you succumb to the pleasure

My tongue applies to you

Again I feel you shift

The warmth coming from you

No! The HEAT coming from you

Moves slowly up my belly

As your breasts depart my mouth

I watch them gently swaying

As you move further up

The heat is sliding over my chest

My own nipples like bullets

My anticipation skyrockets

So hot right now on me

And then your sweet aroma

Enters my nose you drive me wild

And then . . . . .  almost there you pause . . . .

I am filled with nothing but you

Your most intimate secret

Is my entire world

Nothing else matters nor moves

Time stands still, Silence reigns

Even my breathing has stopped

As yours has too poised on the brink

This is the moment, do or die

The connection will be complete

This one act of desire

Of tenderness

Between one spirit

Residing within two bodies

Is encompassed in this one moment

The most gentle and accepting

Act of passion and love . - - - - - - - - - -  T.B.C

Your Loss

Your Loss

Your accepting
Your ire
Your anger
Your martyrdom
Your victimisation
Your selfishness
Your drama
Your agenda
Your innocence
Your reality

Your Loss

Gladness

Gladness

I'm glad that I wasted all those hours
Wasted for me but not it appears for you
All that time invested in what I believed
Would lead to the love of my lifetime
Turned out to be no more than healing

Your busted spirit and stroking your ego
And now with the first opportunity to arise
You grab it with both hands, grateful for it
The chance now to end this fiasco and be free
Accepting of all the words of comfort and care

Healing you to allow your own faith to return
And then left with the problem of how to end
Your unthinking selfishness provided the answer
Never did you guess that that picture would hurt
But it did, and my innocent request for courtesy

Rejected and ignored with the accusation of drama
Saved you the agony of trying to find the way out
There it was right in front of you, such good fortune
My pain and hurt, you could use it to your advantage
Accuse me of being a drama queen and then ignore

No matter what was now said, nor how bared was my soul
There was your escape, pick and choose the bits you need
And then attack me on those points only, Et Voila ! success
Pretend your innocent and I'm the aggressor, that works
Apologies and explanations now completely pointless

You got what you wanted, allowing you to walk away
Head held high as yet again you are allowed to be the victim
Your own version of the world playing out perfectly once more
Fits all your personal agendas now, you can be free and happy
Your own reality perfectly arranged again, you at the centre

The star of your own show basking in the adulation of your fans
Glowing in the lights of your magnificent stage starring you
The poor downtrodden victim princess so beautifully damaged
Admired and loved by all your groupies around the internet
And in the shadows as I always was for so many real stars

Standing in the wings again, assuring that the show goes on

Kiss

Kiss

I want you so bad

I need you so bad

I love you so good

Kiss you so good

Kiss you till your

Ears burn off

For by Four

For by Four

For Four months now

I've held your hand

Calmed you down

Wiped your tears

Listened to it all

Every fucking rant

Each and every pain

Tears falling like rain

Made you laugh out loud

When you didn't want to smile

Caressed your battered ego

Assuaged all your fears

Told you I love you

Hugged you tight

Held you close

Heard all your moans

All the ups and downs

Been there without fail

Day or night, ALL night

And now I see at last

The days you don't call

The days you don't message

The days with no contact

The days when I don't exist

I know you have a life

As do I with my kids

I know you have been hurt

As have I for so long now

But I'm there for you

I don't hide behind

My life doesn't intrude

You my love, I include

We were set to heal

Each other’s battered

Hearts and minds and souls

Bandages of Love and care

At least that what I thought

But when the big one happens

You feel down coz this isn't right

You have to get a job and fight

  

Your art has to step aside

Just for a short while

So you can make money

You go into a spin again

And there I am once more

Words of praise and love

Accepting what must now happen

Little time for us together

I know this and deal

But on the biggest day

Where are you now ?

Nowhere to be seen or heard

I know it's not easy

It’s not for me too

But I wanted to be there

For you on this day

Deafened by the silence

Blinded by the dark

Sleepless with worry

Dragged down by care

I don't want to disturb you

I know there's a lot to do

I wait patiently by the phone

Only to spend my night alone

Not even a message

Nor a quick call

"I don't wanna talk now"

That would settle my nerves

But it seems to me

That it's all one way

Until it suits you

And then it just hurts

Cuts deep into my soul

I've offered up my heart

Like the daft old cunt I am

Bare and open wide

Never felt this way before

So willing to bare my soul

Spread wide for you to enter

Unafraid of loving you

Stripped right back

To the very bones

Everything laid out

Just for you to take

And take you have

With so little in return

Making myself believe

Ends up in make believe

Allowed myself to care

Once more I give it all

And once more the pain

That's all I get in return

Not again, no more

I truly found love

This time deep inside

And now tossed aside

This time I thought

It was for real, so true

Never had I felt this way

The depth of my love

So scared every moment

So blissfully happy every day

So afraid of it going wrong

So wary of your pain

And yet here it is again

A hole in my heart so big

All of my love drains out

Leaving me empty inside

So I retreat once more

No more pain for me

Safe back here again

Behind the wall of loneliness

Here I'll stay now

Alone in the dark

In here it doesn't hurt

In here I can heal

I loved you

I loved you

You were sweet

You were fun

You were hot

You pulled the world from under my feet

You might as well have used a gun

On my life’s landscape you became a blot

I loved you

When I saw you my heart would race

You made me shiver and shake

You made dark skies brighten

Now I can’t look in your face

Now my heart is one big ache

Now you make my throat tighten

I loved you

I thought you were the best

The fun we had in our bed

I was so happy you were my wife

You ripped my heart from my chest

Now I just wish you outta my head

Just get the fuck outta my life

I loved you

Now I don’t even like you

Butterfly of Love

So fragile as it flits from flower to flower
Skittish in the air and buffeted by breeze
It lands but briefly on barren stems
But where there is nectar and nurture

That is where it stays for sustenance
The flower opens accepting the butterfly
Both taking nourishment from the welcome
When given so carefree, so gratifyingly

But like the torture wheel breaking
Wings fall to the ground in tiny pieces
Destroyed in seconds so carelessly
The delicate butterfly of love so broken

Love, when strong, can conquer everything
Even trivial stupidity and inane harsh words
The butterfly lies there injured, hurt & crumpled
Love can, and will, with care, be repaired in time

Words spoken foolishly, need to be chosen
Now with care, tenderness and true affection
Must these words that fall from the mouth
For without love and care, hearts will lie bare

Empty and destroyed in moments of insanity
So easy to wound, so hard to retract and mend
Only fools and drunks disregard these truths
Left to reflect and repent the idiocy of their words